The last sight

One last blue line,
And I will close my eyes.
If I open them again,
Hope I am blind.
Never been this drunk before
Sloshed without the wine.
Closed eyes in loop again,
My mistakes are all mine.
And I can stumble all I want,
My past and future aside.
What it felt one night,
By that window with covered blinds.
So high in the sky, so high,
In rain, nowhere to hide.
Easy to hide tears in rain,
And feel not another smile.
Another day might be this,
In a lonely hearts doubts hide.
Companies of strangers,
And love on the blindside.
To couch feelings in words,
And forget the princess bride.
Lies to a heart pierce,
More of me in days to die.
Quiet I stand by the window,
Now I have pulled my blinds.